When people start getting into an intense...
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Amen! My song for the week...explains my life...
There’s some things that I regret, Some words I wish had gone unsaid, Some starts, That had some bitter endings, Been some bad times I’ve been through, Damage I cannot undo, Some things, I wish I could do all all over again, But it don’t really matter, Life gets that much harder, It makes you that much stronger, Oh, some pages turned, Some bridges burned, But there were, Lessons...
“Why do I do this to myself? Another day is passing and I’ve done nothing but feel how broken my heart is. Do you know I exist? Do you know how much I care? Will you ever see how important you are to me, how much I adore you? As each day passes, it gets that much harder and that much deeper. I think about nothing else. I just want you to feel the same way I do. I want you to open your...
That moment when you realize your life has spiraled out of control.
WHY I TAKE A LONG TIME TO GET READY TO GO OUT
Tonight was one of the worst nights of my life. It absolutely breaks my heart to know that someone I care so much about has been so extremely upset with me. It’s almost too much to handle. I pray for understanding and forgiveness. I am going to be a better friend to all of the people I am blessed to call my friend. I have learned a hard lesson. I can’t change the past. I must apologize...
Sometimes I wonder if it’s really worth it. The line “don’t make someone your priority when your an option to them” is so cliche but completely accurate right now. So much work put in but nothing in return.
MY FEELINGS EVERY DAMN SATURDAY MORNING
WHEN I JUSTIFY BELTING OUT CHRISTMAS SONGS IN...
I sit here in my living room just hanging out and came across some pictures of my grandmother. It hadn’t hit me yet that this is the first Christmas season I have ever spent without her in my life. I have spent every Christmas Eve with her since I was born. It was her favorite time of year because all of family got together. She would cook dinner for everyone. She was the best cook. We would...
MY DEFINITION OF EARLY
It’s hitting that time in the semester again. I feel completely defeated work wise and I’m bored. I know that the only person to blame for my grades is myself. I will own up to that one real quick. I just hate class. I have learned that it doesn’t matter what school I go to, I just HATE school. I do. I need to pull my life together and get through these last 2 and a half...
Why do my brain and my heart have to disagree? They never work as one. My head tells me one thing but the rest of my body tells me another. I want to know. I want to quit asking the same questions. I don’t want to wait around anymore. I’m tired of hiding. I want to be at that point of joy. I want to just be happy. I’m so tired of not knowing. One day I’ll be in exactly the...
Something I'll probably never get used to...
In life we are given people and people are taken away. I’m not talking about death, I’m more or less talking about relationships. The relationship could be with friends, whoever. I just have started to realize that people change over time. I sometimes wonder how much I have changed or if I’m the same as I have always been. I don’t feel like I’ve changed. And if I have...
Lord, teach me to find my joy in you. Teach me to seek you like you call me to. Teach me to have open ears and a heart that longs for you. Teach me to love like you. I know that I haven’t been seeking you like I should. Show me where I’ve let you down. Show me where I have failed. Show me how to improve. Show me how to live my life devoted to you. Teach me first these things and then...
The trade off
I’ve begun to realize that life is full of so many choices. We make decisions whether or not to do, say, listen, etc to something. Being in Gainesville and attending The University of Florida is the best decision I have ever made. I have been blessed with amazing friends. opportunities, and experiences. I am so thankful for this! Having said all of that, there are trade-offs that I had to...
Why can’t I contain my feelings? You make my heart happier than anyone else. :)
MAKING A BEELINE FOR THE BATHROOM
I have way to much to do this week and not enough time. I need to pack, move, unpack, re-pack to go to Texas. All of this by Thursday, it’s Sunday. I also work Monday and Tuesday. I also have to pack enough clothes for seven days in one carry-on. ahhhhhh. I can do it? :/
WHEN MY FRIEND CALLS WITH FUN PLANS
WHEN THERES A REALLY LONG LINE FOR THE BATHROOM
Why does my heart only want what I can’t have? Maybe one day?
When I get together with my friends from high...
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My heart! :)
The feeling I have been having lately is daunting. I want so much to happen and to change but have absolutely no motivation to work towards it. It’s constantly on my mind. I know that it’s going to work out, I just have to pray, trust, and work for it. The Lord is good to provide my needs.
Do I ever cross your mind? Am I a thought even for a second? Am I just something to have at your convenience?
So many people are getting engaged, it’s ridiculous. I know that the Lord has a plan for me. It’s just hard to stay focused on that sometimes. I want to be patient but it is so hard. I said I would never post something like this on here, but whatever. It’s the truth.
Confused. Ugh my heart.
Worst feeling on earth: Having to call one of your parents and ask them for money. Ugh